State of mind ..

I cannot seem to shake off this negative state of mind lately ... work is a constant struggle, nobody cares if I am there or not ... I seem to be losing my on-going battle with time ... my aches and pains of earlier in the year have returned, I'm tired all the time ... I feel like I am falling apart at the seams, both physically and mentally. Even taking solace in my books and cd's only lifts the feelings for a short while .... . The dark clouds have descended again ... hope they clear soon and quickly, for things cannot go on like this indefinitely . I am down ... but not out. I am fighting these thoughts and feelings ... I might not be winning at the moment, but I know I will eventually - there is still light at the end of the tunnel ... I haven't completely given up hope, I will not give up hope ....

This just sums up how I feel at my worse ...... it is taken from one of the Bard's most powerful works - Hamlet .... after over 400 years, Shakespeare's words are still a mirror on the Human condition ...

.... I have of late—but wherefore I know not—lost all my mirth, forgone all custom of exercises; and indeed,it goes so heavily with my disposition that this goodly frame,the earth, seems to me a sterile promontory; this most excellent canopy, the air, look you, this brave o'erhanging firmament, this majestical roof fretted with golden fire,why, it appears no other thing to me than a foul and pestilent congregation of vapours.

What a piece of work is a man! how noble in reason! how infinite in faculty! in form and moving how express and admirable! in action how like an angel! inapprehension how like a god! the beauty of the world, the paragon of animals! And yet to me what is this quintessence
of dust? Man delights not me—no, nor woman neither .....