Life is a roller-coaster ...... or so the song says. Yep, definitely agree with that statement - it has felt like there have been quite a few ups and downs ( mostly downs ... ) in the last few months for me in my little life ...
The downs were mostly work related - just totally fed up there most of the time. It was the usual things - seemingly being ignored, or treated like a brain-less cretin by management ... the waste was an issue too, as was cleaning, paperwork etc. ... as I said, the usual things - everything seemed to be getting on my nerves and getting me down for a while. The dark clouds had well and truly descended around me, and it took a LONG time for them to start to clear this time - more time than ever before ( hence the lack of posts .... lots to write/complain about, but absolutely no inclination to do so ) , but they did clear in the end - not completely, but enough for me to see the sun again. .... things improve for a while, as they usually do. I'm still there for the foreseeable future, and that is that ... I'm fairly content if not happy at the prospect ... but that might change at any time ... . Matters were not helped by the fact that the aches and pains that troubled me for periods last year made an unwanted reappearance too - probably connected to my poor state of mind I expect ... I do seem to have them more ( or notice them more ? ) when I am down and depressed. They come and go as they please - I have just learned to live with them .... after a while they ease and I go on as before.
Anyway, there were more than a few downs - at home ( bigbrother still being a complete control freak, Mum still trying to run my life by her timetable ... rows and tears galore ... ) as well as at work since my last posts ( was that really 3 months ago !!! - oops ... ) - but not everything was black, doom and gloom in my world - there have been some ups too ... and yes,some were connected to my petite obsessions ... especially the Maestro *hee hee * ( more about that in another post I think ! ) ... simple things keep me happy ! I am still fighting to keep my promise to myself from the beginning of the year - to keep a positive state of mind - so far I haven't done too well, but I am still trying ... and while I am doing that, there is still hope I WILL succeed.
For now, I am just enjoying the ride for a while ... I know and expect there to be more lows, more big dips ... but without the lows, the highs would not be so high, so exciting , so invigorating would they ?... Life - it's just a ride ...
