Time Wars ....

I feel like I am fighting a bit of an on-going battle with Time at the moment .....

It is taking me longer and longer to get out of bed in the morning. It is not that I go back to sleep, just that I lay there - awake but unwilling to move. One part of my brain is telling me it is time to get up ( which I know) ,another is telling me five more minutes will not hurt .... which extends to another five, then another ..... it normally ends up with me dragging my body out of bed at least 30 minutes after I should have. It is just that the mornings are becoming darker and colder .... my bed is nice and warm .... many reasons. It doesn't help that I seem to be going through one of my "grey" periods in life - nothing going on, work is getting on my nerves (again) , never having any ' spare ' money for even the smallest extras as it is disappearing as fast as I earn it on just on basics .... a general feeling of fed-upness. which comes and goes every once in a while. I know that only I have the power to do anything about all this ... to change it, to think more positively ... but that doesn't stop me being a little down sometimes - hence a current slowness to leave my bed to start another day ( which is probably going to be the same as the last ... ). I know it is not going to be like this forever ... there IS light at the end of the tunnel, spring WILL return , I WILL get out of bed when I should ..... but not just yet ... :-)

I have another conflict with the forces of Time when I get to work, but this is a different one entirely. Here, I get the impression that my work area is part of a completely different time zone to the rest of the store ... the rest of world sometimes. There is a fault in the time/space continuum that causes time outside this area to speed up .... I feel as if 30 mins have passed when actually I find 1 hour has. Time passes SO fast .... I never manage to leave work on time ... always find it a struggle to finish all my work in the allotted time period ... never have enough time to do everything. It is a source of amusement and frustration ... amusement to others ( "Are you STILL here ? ...." ) , frustration to myself. Whatever I do ... change my routine, skip jobs,whatever ... I still cannot appear to leave much earlier. Not helping my mood much .....

So my little battles continue ... I'll keep fighting and who knows, one day I might just win ....